Each memory rips through me, and although I stow myself against the emotions, I can’t prevent the pain that accompanies each image. Pain for a love never acknowledged, pain for a friendship now gone. Pain for a loss I can’t possibly endure.
My mind is quiet now. There is no fire or ash, no sulfur or shattering glass. Only silence, empty and cold.
I’m not certain what I notice first, the bright flickering light that illuminates the darkness underneath my eyelids, or the shrill screams that pull me form the dredges of sleep. Either way, I’m awake. And afraid.
My thoughts are quiet, but not calm. There is a terror on the edge of the silence, a terror fed by my burning flesh and the stench of death.
There are few things I hate more than feeling weak. Needing help or failing top the list. The worst, however, is knowing that all three just happened.
A hand in mine.. hot. Breath on my neck… sweet. The feel of lips on my own… forbidden.
Ien stopped her voice with more kisses, more promises of a world filled with only them.
I press my lips hard against hers, tasting her desire, her pain, her love, her confusion. At once I’m in two lives, two worlds, two places.
He would die in this room, buried alive by the weight of his life.
I never mastered anything. I am damaged. Broken. And I always will be.
Forever. He carved the word into his soul. Kiera was his forever, deformity or no deformity.
She smiles and snuggles into me as we wait for our table. I inhale her scent. Vanilla and something else. Something different. Smokey almost. Sexy. It drives me crazy with need and I have to move away while I can.
Cass pulls from my embrace, her mind reaching into my heart. Pain, anger, confusion pass through her eyes. My pain. My anger. My confusion. She swallows hard. “Because?”“Because I traded it all, my heart, my memories, everything. For her.
Every spot his mouth touches closes the empty spaces inside.
A pang of deep longing ripples through me. I’m torn between my promise to send Aydan to the Abyss and my need to keep him safe. The opposing forces fragment what remains of my mind, breaking me down once again.
What is love, Mikayel? Isn’t it the most irrational of all human emotions? And the one most forbidden?