I guess there’s a Use By date when it comes to blaming your parents for how messed up you are.I guess that’s what turning eighteen means.Time to own it.
I don’t want the world to keep turning without me on it.
We are selfish, my illness and I. We think only of ourselves. We shape the world around us into messages, into secret whispers spoken only for us.
Once-upon-a-time we buried the memories we didn’t want.
This is what labels do. They stick. If people think you’re MAD, then everything you do, everything you think, will have MAD stamped across it.
If I look closely I can see we have the same colour eyes, not me and Simon, but me and the boy who is also me, the boy who I can no longer recognise, with whom I no longer share a single thought, worry, or hope.
HELLO, my name is your potential. But you can call me impossible. I am the missed opportunities. I am the expectations you will never fulfil. I am always taunting you, regardless of how hard you try, how hard you hope.
She’s known sadness. That’s what it is. I only just thought that as I wrote it. She’s known sadness, and it has made her kind.
We place memories on pieces of paper to know they will always exist.
But sometimes all the stars in the entire universe conspire to make something good happen.
Hello, my name is your potential. But you can call me impossible. I am the missed opportunities. I am the expectations you will never fulfill. I am always taunting you, regardless of how hard you try, regardless of how much you hope.
When she turned to see me smiling. It was an awkward smile, but you only really know what a smile means when you own the face behind it. Everyone else just sees the smile they expected it to be.
You only really know what a smile means when you own the face behind it. Everyone else just sees the smile they expect it to be.
Inside my head is a jigsaw made of trillions and trillions and trillions of atoms. It might take a while.
This is what labels do. They stick. If people think you’re MAD, then everything you do, everything you think will have MAD stamped across it.
I do not have a split mind. I am not different people. I am myself, the same self I have always been, the one person I can never escape.
Some madness doesn’t act mad to begin with, sometimes it will knock politely at the door, and when you let it in, it’ll simply sit in the corner without a fuss – and grow.
But that is what these people do – the Steves of this world – they all try and make something out of nothing. and they all do it for themselves.
It’s hard to know what to say sometimes, when someone does something so nice. It’s hard to know where to look.